
Tonight, I did something I have not done in a while (well, I have not been able to do in a long time).
That was -- driving home from dinner with the windows down. The weather is finally cooling off enough to where the evenings provide an extremely pleasant breeze. The windows down, the music up, the wind swirling through the car, and my hand hanging out the window waving slowly up and down -- completes one of my most favorite things to do.
Freedom -- is how it feels to drive on these occasions. I can put my head back on the seat and just enjoy.
Yesterday, although less placid of an experience, I felt something very similar. I competed in my first USA Trail Championship race.
Being a road runner, I arrived to Laurel Ridge, NC with my Nike Lunar Racers in tow, my coach, and my new 4-Runners Only teammate. I was not sure what to expect and NOT entirely sure what I had gotten us into...
Laurel Ridge was my 'summer home' from my 7th grade year to my senior year in high school. I know the place well; the cabins, the canteen, the camp fire area. It was refreshing to return to this incredibly beautiful place. I could not wait to get back out on the trails I had spent so many summers wandering on - however, I had never raced through them - nor would I have tried to.
The beginning of the race was at the top of the mountain where the campfire area was and from there we would race up and down, and all around the mountain.
The start of the race was a hectic downhill run into the trails. Two women shot out with an early lead and I quickly realized that I needed to establish some sort of 'position' or it would be impossible to pass once we entered the single-track, steep trails. The two women in front of me completely impressed and astounded me with their ability to leap from side to side and 'float' through the extreme downhills. (I, on the other hand, had no clue what I was doing ....just questioning my sanity and praying I would not misstep and do some face-first racing...)
The remainder of the race included some very technical trail racing that involved using trees to swing around a switchback Tarzan-style, slippery and mossy large rocks to slide over (and climb up on hands and knees), hurdling large roots and fallen trees, *NOT looking over and down*, and feeling like I was part of "Last of the Mohicans" as I realized how very much fun I was having. The result? I could not quit smiling.
Finishing the race with my highest national placing yet (2nd) -- I still struggle to find the right words to explain this experience.
It was wild...incredible...crazy...unpredictable...it was complete FREEDOM.
I was covered in mud, smacked with branches, fought against burning muscles, ...BUT...
Flying up and down those trails, I found fearlessness. I fully embraced the experience. If I slipped, I was going to be okay. If I fell, I was fine. If it hurt ... it was worth it.
And today, I HURT. The soreness is incomparable to anything I have felt in a long, long time --- but, to have that complete sense of freedom of running wildly though the forest and having nothing and no one other than myself dictating the pace ... was none other than, undeniably worth it.
And this, this is why I simply could not quit smiling.


